The birth of a novel

I have managed to write more than I have done in years. I have lots of drafts of different books all over the place, hard-drives, memory sticks and even notes on my phone. I have scribbles written in books, on my iPad, pretty much anywhere I can find really.
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After my blog last week, I started to write my first story. I’ve written less than 250 words but they are the best 250 words I have written (non-academically) in a long time.

This story is based on nothing more than a dream. I have some of the weirdest, most vivid dreams you could imagine and at times I am confused by what happened in the dreams and why on earth I was dreaming certain things.

Last night I had the most bizarre dream. I don’t recall much of it but it was based around a society where everyone was in an almost ‘regimental’ Hunger Games or Divergent sort of society. I think this was due to the fact I had just had my phone buzz about a million times to tell me that a terror attack had taken place on London Bridge, alongside many from friends asking me if I was okay.

UnknownIt’s really cool to think about stories, where people have gotten them from and how they have actually taken the time to sit down and share them with the world. I’m current sat directly in front of my bookcase in the living room looking at hundreds of stories that have been cultivated by authors for the enjoyment of others. It’s incredible. There are so many talented writers in this world and so many people with such amazing stories that go untold because they are scared to fail or scared that their story isn’t worth bothering with.

 

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Procrastination

Hi everyone!
I know I haven’t posted on here in forever, so I wanted to just write a little update on things and let you all know what is going on.

The reason I haven’t posted in a while is because I don’t really feel that my blog fits into a category and now reads like a jumble of rambling words.

Recently (and as you will see from a past blog I wrote on it) I have been really struggling to do something I want to do which is writing! I have wanted to write a book for a long time now but I get unmotivated by the fact it doesn’t pay the bills, that my writing is different to everyone else and that I just don’t think it would be worth it. There are a lot of people who have unmotivated me by telling me the statistics of writers who get somewhere, the statistics of everything really and tell me to just find a nice comfortable job and settle. The problem is though, I am not good at settling. I don’t want that boring job that depresses me and makes me sigh every morning. I want to do something I love and that is make people smile and fall into magical worlds or places to remove them from an otherwise seemingly bleak reality.

For me right now I just want to write. I have a list of stories / dreams and ideas that I want to tell the world, even if it is just me who ends up listening. I have a burning desire to tell my story and create that world and place for someone to fall into. I guess I find it hard to start this as I often get comments such as ‘LOL, what you want to write the next Harry Potter?’ and ‘Do you know how many people want to do this, you have dyslexia and little income as it is, put your time into something more beneficial’.

I am sure I’m not alone thinking this, according to Forbes, over a million books are published (in the USA alone) yearly, and the majority are self-published with as little as 250 copies being sold in their lifetime. Depressing for those of us who have all these little things tapping away at our glass brains, slowly shattering the thoughts and imaginations of our generation.

To procrastinate I am doing other things instead of blogging, writing and at times even stop reading. I have been on EBay, walking, watching Netflix or starring woefully out the window expecting something magical to happen to help me get my motivation back.

Most people would say that this is the best time of my life, I’ve graduated with a fantastic degree from a fantastic university and have a brilliant life and no commitments… Sure, but what the hell am I supposed to do? I can’t just fall into a corporate job time after time, sit in an office and wait for a huge promotion due to all my hard work, or hope that an exciting and fun opportunity will come up, as I will be sat here till I die.

So, I’m going to try my best to focus on writing and reading more. I am going to blog more about this and try to focus my interests in one direction instead of jumble them up all over the place. I have a brain full of thoughts, ideas and passions as well as interests, and it’s impossible to share them all with the world (except for on Instagram, but shh).

Is anyone else stuck in a similar situation? What do you do to get yourself out of it?

 

Historical sites

Somewhere a lot of people forget to visit is Avebury! It’s one of the most beautiful historical sites in the whole of the UK and yet, people flock to Stonehenge instead! 

This baffles me, I mean don’t get me wrong, it’s a beautiful and fascinating place, but my little village is something quite spectacular! The one difference and possibly reason why Stonehenge is more desirable is beside of the sheer size and ability it would have taken to move the stones, let alone put them on top of one another! 

There are so many wonderful places in the UK to visit, so don’t limit yourself, try finding the hidden gems, treasures and undiscovered wonders of this pretty country. Here are a few places I’ve been too recently that, if you’re planning a trip I suggest you visit! 

Wetlands near Hammersmith
Martha and I exploring the coast!
The coast of England, Old Harry’s!
Avebury Stone circle
Avebury, the rooted tree!

Curly Kale crisps! 

I’ve decided to make myself some crisps. These aren’t your usual crisps, they are kale crisps! You can buy these in Prett and Waitrose, but they cost a fortune when you can make them for next to nothing!

I researched kale and found it is one of the most wonderful things for your body. Not only is it full of vitamins and low in fat, but it’s got many antioxidants in which are believed to help combat that horrible nasty thing called cancer! 

These crisps are super yummy and have been fantastic for a snack, eating with Thai green curry or mixing into a salad.

So how did I make them?

  1. Curly kale from supermarket 
  2. Sugar / salt
  3. Oil (olive oil)

Toss the curly kale and olive oil in a bowl together. Mix it with a tiny bit of salt and spread on a baking tray.

Next put the tray in the oven and cook it on 180 degrees until crispy for about ten minutes. Toss the kale over and put back in for another five minutes. Remove from oven and leave to cool.

When it’s out toss it in some sugar (I suggest a pinch of soft brown!) then serve!

All photos from Pinterest ❤️

Adult acne update 

Hi everyone! Hope you’re all having a good weekend so far. 

I wanted to post an update on my skin. Last year I blogged about having adult acne and the problems / complications this has brought me. 

Well, today I wanted to update you on what it was like having to take roaccutane and what it has been like since! 

So what exactly is roaccutane and what is it used for?

“Retinoids work by reducing the amount of the oily substance (i.e. sebum) made by glands in your skin, reducing bacteria and inflammation and opening clogged pores. There are many different types of medicines used to treat acne. ROACCUTANE is used for more severe cases. It was originally created to combat skin cancer. ROACCUTANE is found to cure 70% of patients first time round.”

So now you know what it is and why it’s used! A few things about roaccutane are, you can’t have a child, you get ache pain and it can cause severe depression. It was actually nicknamed the suicide pill in the USA! 

Anyway, my update. Annoyingly it didn’t work for me. I was on 90mg from July to December which is a high dose and good length of time. It for the most cured some of the acne but not all of it. 

Now I’m back at stage one again trying to rid myself of this horrible acne as well as the scars that have appeared as a result! 

I recently went to see a new dermatologist and we decided that roaccutane was a bad idea to try again, because I had reduced muscular strength, weight gain and a worsened knee injury caused from skiing! This photo of Jon and I was taken a week ago on a day out in London. As you can see, there are clear signs of acne on my cheeks, nose and forehead. I actually covered my face in BB cream, foundation and coverup, but it’s still showing through!This is what my skin is looking like now, after a week of new treatment from the dermotologist. There is still clear evidence that I have acne, the scars are still visible and it is still slightly inflamed. 

I am now at a stage where I am able to exercise properly following roaccutane, which seriously affected my knee joins and I’m loosing weight gradually as well as safely! I’m trying to eat properly, reduce my lactosefree – dairy intake and drink more coconut and soy. I am still having issues with my knees, it hurts to drive and walk downstairs but I’m hoping with weight loss this will lessen. 

Another positive thing you will notice is that the skin unaffected is flawless! The new medicine I’m now on consists of two topical creams and a tablet to have daily. 

The creams are two that ‘peel’ your skin off and cause an almost sunburnt effect to the face, removing the top layers of skin to help promote growth and new ones. One of which is like roaccutane, but doesn’t hurt my insides. The tablets I’m now on are to clear infection and rid me of any future acne. It’s hard to say if it’s working so far, I’m only a week in and it’s a 4-8 month treatment! 

So, I’m hoping that over the next few months this will be the final battle to rid my skin of acne! I wanted to update everyone because I know how hard I found this and still do, and think it’s nice to feel human and read that other girls in their mid 20’s are experiencing the same thing as you! 

I’ll keep everyone updated on this and what does and doesn’t help. X

Smile like everyone’s watching

No matter how awkward, difficult or bad things can get in life I believe it is important to treasure life and all the happy moments it brings! Today had its ups and downs, but no matter how down things can get I believe that the positive and good things will outshine them and continue to glow brighter and brighter until they become the happy thing in a day.

JK always knows what to say!

Happy Tuesday everyone!

Good morning everyone! It’s Tuesday today and the first day back at work for most of us which means it’s only a four day week!

It’s extremely windy here in Wiltshire today but the sun is shining which is great. Just a bit of positivity for everyone today from me…

Remember to smile, hold your chin up and do things that make you happy. Ignore others negativity and walk away, cut them loose and surround yourself with people who are happy, fun and live their life to the full! Don’t allow people to hold your past against you, we all make mistakes and we all live and learn! I believe things happen for a reason so live in the moment and be yourself! 

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